Something happened today to make me question... who am i? Am i really who i am?
I was kinda upset when i reached home and realised that one of my fav shirt flew down the window and landed on the pillar of my neighbour's house. Guess wat? I went to press the bell, went to knock the door and still no answer. I even had to resort to pasting a post-it note to get em to sweep my shirt off.... still no action. Ended up my mum had to help me with it.
Of course, before hand that wasnt wat she said? She told me it was just a cheap piece of clothing that wasnt worth wasting time over? Have she thought of how i felt? She reminded me of once when i had a quarrel over a piece of clothing... my fav shorts with my ex. His mum offered to buy me a new piece, i rejected. Coz he can never find the same piece again....Dont anyone get it? I dont want just anything? or anyone? Its that particular thing that gives me tat feel? Nothing can replace it....Becos of that i made everyone upset... sometimes i just hate myself so much.
Is it that i am being selfish? Or that i am over sentimental? Of course She also mentioned that i am too impulsive... cant ever depend on me that sorta thing which upsets me alot...
Well i cried.... thats all... I just feel down... hope to cheer myself up soon. She even mentioned many things that hurt... i know its not true but i just dun wish to add on...
Didnt wanna bother anyone so i juz kept these feelings within me after the conversation with her.. didnt wanna tell my boi abt it too... Dar... sorry to keep this with me if u happen to read my blog... but i juz dun feel like mentioning.. at least not at this point in time.
At work LE treat us all Orange Juice today and stopped me for coaching... the word coaching really scares me alot... i was wondering what i did wrongly again... ended up heng... its just monthily coaching to set target and all... i am just too tired.. i might just go ahead with a break... i am dying...SOMEONE ANYONE.... HELP!
I was kinda upset when i reached home and realised that one of my fav shirt flew down the window and landed on the pillar of my neighbour's house. Guess wat? I went to press the bell, went to knock the door and still no answer. I even had to resort to pasting a post-it note to get em to sweep my shirt off.... still no action. Ended up my mum had to help me with it.
Of course, before hand that wasnt wat she said? She told me it was just a cheap piece of clothing that wasnt worth wasting time over? Have she thought of how i felt? She reminded me of once when i had a quarrel over a piece of clothing... my fav shorts with my ex. His mum offered to buy me a new piece, i rejected. Coz he can never find the same piece again....Dont anyone get it? I dont want just anything? or anyone? Its that particular thing that gives me tat feel? Nothing can replace it....Becos of that i made everyone upset... sometimes i just hate myself so much.
Is it that i am being selfish? Or that i am over sentimental? Of course She also mentioned that i am too impulsive... cant ever depend on me that sorta thing which upsets me alot...
Well i cried.... thats all... I just feel down... hope to cheer myself up soon. She even mentioned many things that hurt... i know its not true but i just dun wish to add on...
Didnt wanna bother anyone so i juz kept these feelings within me after the conversation with her.. didnt wanna tell my boi abt it too... Dar... sorry to keep this with me if u happen to read my blog... but i juz dun feel like mentioning.. at least not at this point in time.
At work LE treat us all Orange Juice today and stopped me for coaching... the word coaching really scares me alot... i was wondering what i did wrongly again... ended up heng... its just monthily coaching to set target and all... i am just too tired.. i might just go ahead with a break... i am dying...SOMEONE ANYONE.... HELP!
