Posting and posting

The skies looked really gloomy now, just like what my heart felt like.
The happiness that lasted the few weeks seems to have fall short.
Now they've all seem to drift far away.

I am a person of few friends, because i pick my friends and i don't open
myself up easily. But i do cherish and treasure all my hand picked friends.
I don't easily share my life with someone and its not easy for me to
talk to someone...

People who knew me will know what happened before.. its not because i am
afraid of failures... I've been through them all. From failing to get into polytechnic to
now a university graduate soon-to-be... from failing my driving test to now.. holding my own
driving license...

But when it comes to matters of the heart... it is just so hard to say ..
so hard to understand and comprehend.. so hard to open up...
so hard to be positive anymore....

Its been a long way here....20months & many long nights and days...
is it so hard to have someone to love me and really think about how i feel?
To listen to me and offer a comforting shoulder for me to lean on?
Sometimes i am very afraid that i might make the wrong decision...yet sometimes
i am afraid i'll regret if i let go....
What should i do?

P/S: Choosing love songs.... if you have any to add to my list to lemme know k...

1) From this moment
2) Till the end
3) For the First time
.....................cant think of other better songs at the moment....

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Took some pics previously of this 2 notti doggies...
enjoy!

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So another day had gone and come again...
i am really short-tempered....
I was almost angry every other day.... oh i dunno what i should say...
initially i was ok... but the more i think abt it.. the more angry i got =(

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wats wrong wif me?

Sick?
Yeah babes... I am currently not so in the pink of health.
Had absolutely no idea what happened...
my tummy is so airy. Not sure if its due to the water @ the office?
The aircon which is too strong for my body to take it?
Or myself eating at irregular hours due to the call center job?

Sighs....
Why is it that its me?
Why others did not complain of such things? Why?
I am just puzzled....is this world all about chasing numbers?
Its so horrible to wake up every hour of the night just so to burp the "wind"
out of the body... as i am saying now... i "burped".
I don't even drink gasy drinks much and normally i go for warm water
when i am at home...

I need a cure...
I need to know whats wrong with me?
=(

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YoHooo

How time had flew past ya....
Looking back its a year full of events.
Past week we've gone to the Jurong Bird Park, we went overseas with Mummy and
we also started Spring cleaning and walking around hoping to clear our vochures.

Havent been so happy for a long time, althou i had yet to find my ideal job...
but looking forward i am glad that i've acheived quite alot here...

=)
Cheers!

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Happy WeeKend

YiPpie....... its a happy weekend!
Whats new this weekend?
You know every working week is a new week but what keeps me really happy is weekends!

Update from work: Tulasi had left the company coz heard that her hubby is posted back to M'sia. My TM also suddenly asked for our resume which i smell that something fishy is going on...this month also suffered a pay cut coz last month took NPL for exams (its 6 days!!!!) you can really imagine my pay only enough to cover transport and i practically felt like i've been working for free for the rest of the days! Here its not like my ex company where they really let me advance and advance all the leave i want. Here is soooooooo stingy lor haiiz. Also they told us to print out our MCs and leave balance... dunno what they want? Think they gonna have some sort of apprasial going on... anyway hack... told mum i'm gonna leave once i found a better job. Anyway i'll graduating soon also.... Yippie......

Next Up: Saturday went to JB (City Square) & what the other place ahz....? Forgot the name liaox lol. Went there to walk walk with dar & mummy lor. Bought myself a new pair of shoes and a new mini jacket (my 1st ever mini jacket) hehe.... saved quite a bit...The malaysia teppanyaki wasn't what i thought it was supposed to be... but mummy had a try haha.

We all had fun lohz.... next time mummy says go Jesco to walk walk yippie.... but not in the near future. You know they're moving the immigration check point to somewhere further down le?
But doesn't really matter since we don't drive right? LOLx.

Later goin to watch movie and clear my vochure le....Weeee YipIeee!!!

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Rants

Sometimes i really feel it is getting ridiculously wrong. They say that he can predict 10 years ahead. But didn't he see that babies will grow up and decide to have their own nest? Or is it that becos he is so rich and stay in a private house and expect all Singaporeans to do so too? Or to cramp with their family in that spacious home becos everyone does not have babies and the home will be so spacious or what? Of course babies will grow up, fall in love and decide to get married. Tell Singaporeans to have more babies... but what? No home... should we all just set up tents and live there? OMG....

Just so fetup the flat supply is simply not enough manz! Cant they just build those flats first? somemore must see enough ppl apply or not? So ridiculous... Grrrrr.. what can i say manz... sometimes i feel so angry.
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See this yellow bird? nice mah? I took it since had been seeing it so often... keke
nice hor? suspect from birdpark fly out de... wonder when can go JBP!

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Heart Pain

I am in pain... my heart aches...... my heart is pumping very quickly...
and it is so difficult for me to breathe...
i dunno wats happening....... its so painful.... so painful.....

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depressed again

sometimes.... somehow... i just feel upset.
i don't know if its just me? or is it normal?
sometimes i just don't want to listen anymore,
i just don't wish to care...
I only want to disappear from this world on this day forth...

Sighs... i am really tired... of everything..
living is a chore... having to think about this and that..
day in day out...
its just a routine... 2008 is going off...
so what? 2009 is just another year....
what am i waiting for?
what am i looking forward to?
what exactly do i want...
i don't know!

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Bahaha...

Wow... today after the end of the paper, i saw alot of black faces walking out of the classroom. Some were chanting... wah lao waste our time to study something that isnt important,
others were saying.. what the hack... wrong focus.. all the negative things you could get after an examination paper. OmG!

Anyway, guess that we all learn our lessons or not? anyway.. heard from D today that 90% who bid the 1/2 yearly sales were 1st timers... god bless us to get our new flats grrrrr

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Rants...

Wohoo.. I really shouldn't be here... really really shouldn't be here...
coz its 2 more days to my 1st exam paper for this semsaster and i am still procrastinating.
I had just SMS "D" to rant coz i can't find much information for a potential examination question.
Guess i have to just drop this topic.

It really isn't going too well at work too... although its already my 2nd month in the company.
I could really say that i am not really happy except for the fact that i can see my dearest everyday and every other moment. Except that now that we've moved, they move us far apart.
What an idiot! Guess that after what my TL had said to my dearest " Don't involve your personal things into your work" I guess that's the triggering sentence that we both should be out looking for new job soon. Idiot! Anyway i didn't like the idea that they are using call boards to mointor our performance more than they are mointering the service level. This is so crap! Worst still...
I have to find out from my collegue that i am siting beside this PRC which i absolutely hate!
Why? Coz he is so noisy... everything he does he had to make it so loud.... OMG!

Good thing is that dearest is slowly settling at work.. hence i am quite reluctant to move on. But after i get my degree.. I know that i have a huge debt to repay.... and the new house that is on its way! We know that our pay cannot sustain us for too long, hence its time to move on....

For my friends whom had been following my blog,
thanks and also sorry for not being able to catch up as there is so much to do and so much
to follow up!

Shall sign off here... cheers! and take care!

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Yes that's right i am busy...

Hi gals....
Yes... i've been very very busy now. Good news... for another 3 weeks till end of October. Bad news, examinations is coming soon... Boo Hoo... project dateline is nearing too and yet not much had been done. Cheers to Man United... coz the case study is really killing me.... sobs...

No traveling until next year... sadden....last week heard from my friend that both her GPs went to join Babe le... tears was coming but i had to just bear the pain... coz to me these GPs are so fragile man... I'm really tired... so much to do.. so little time. Dont even have time to sleep...

Went to watch F1 race last week... wow the lightnings and the vroom vroom sound of the cars...
oh man!!!! no... i didnt watch the finals lolx i watched one of the trainning... finals i watched at home with my boi... was a good watch althou i am not a fan of F1... haha

Nowadays there are more people locking up their blogs... good or bad? You decide...
till then... ciaos!

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BoO!!!

Thanks Bandanna for the SMS... sorry that i was really busy to reply...finally could message you!
Yeah all!!!! I am happy that i survived a week in this new work place of mine! Overall i am still quite positive, trying to increase the Chinese population in my team bleahS....

Today OT-ed for 15mins haha... (paid hor). =Pppp here got trend.. most ppl will OT during lunch de... or if they end at 5pm... they will OT too. Its just that they are so slow, so slow in processing stuff lors...like my staff pass and my security pass... i got the feeling like they'll never come lolx.
Anyway they are making moving preparation la.. so sooner or later... (in 2 mths) we'll be out of here and all that passes... it wouldn't matter anymore.

Really hope that things will improve here.. really can't stand the slowness... bud den slack got slack good oso. Here u take MC... u MIA... bo lang seems to scream at you, but your poor team mates gotta work extra hard to clear the calls lor... so see how lor?

Heard from TL that Monday got Ah Neh comin to join us. So i suggested yesterday for him to drag the training so that its easier for him to teach... and truely, he did it leh haha.
So today been doing jagging... he told me to clear OF.. i told him No.... bu yao hai wo....
i told my colleagues that if they do that to me... I'll be MIA on Monday for sure...
want sue sue lor lolx.... i cant be bothered... the coy is so big yet they only have only one pathetic n small projector... >.<||| sighs... anyway i bo hius le la... tmr got class...zZzzzz gotta wake up early.

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My New Job

And so, i woke up extremely early at 5.30am today, not that i was excited about my new job. But that was becos mum left for work, so told her to wake me up... but i woke up even before my alarm went off. Headed off to have breakfast, took a cold shower and set off to Jurong East to work.

As it was my first day, and i totally had no idea what time or what colour was the bus, i decided to walk to the office. (10-15mins walk) not that bad loh.... then didn't know who to look for and where to go, and decided to call the P.I.C whom i was told to call the other time when i had the interview, and she told me to proceed to the 3rd level eventually... shoke hands with boss and ya was introduced to the TL and then to the director.... and spend the next few minutes listening to boss yadaing about the call board. Next hour, spend the time in front of the PC looking at MOM website EP application and stuff.... followed by another few hours of jagging with my colleague as i watched SL plunged. OMG.... Zzzz

Then she told me she is having lunch @ 2pm and that i had to go at 1pm ALONE!!! Poor me... and so i walked to Atrium to had lunch all alone... sOb sOb... it was my first day at work and i had to eat alone... i felt so pitiful. Time passed very quickly today although all i did was jaggin in and listening to calls... and ya staring into space lor....But boss says that my trainning starts tmr which... i am not so sure, i dun mind jagging smmore since i get paid and i get to learn more things lor....

**********************************NOTICE************************************
By the way, if you are interested to work in an EXPANDING Call Ctre environment,
Gov-Linked and partially owned by Temasek Holdings... most of it all,
you need a Full-Time job & don't mind working on alternate Saturday, OFFICE HOURS &
NO SHIFT WORK required and get paid for OT even for 15 minutes!!!! and is ready to commit for @ least 6months!!! Training provided! Kindly inform me^^ coz i haf sumthing fer you!
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Yawnz... feeling tired as i typed... so i shall stop here... go dry my hair and get ready to bed! Sigin off at 10.03pm

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Happy Belated National Day!

Have you watched the opening of the Beijing Olympics... wow... the moment my bf left.. it was like... Singapore lolx... the nbr 188th country to enter the stadium lor... but the fireworks were really spectacular and the lighting up ceremony was grand. Yesterday watched weight lifting, man's gymnastics and today was swimming, archery and woman's gymnastics.

And Boo!!!! Happy Belated National Day. Was out yesterday at my bf's auntie's house to have pot luck. Well, went to watch preview last week and it was quite disappointing, only the fireworks was worth it and the musical fountains that were spectacular. You should look at how everyone anxiously looked at the "birds" coming out and trying to spot Cheryl on the TV... i must say we had a good laugh...

Aunty Grace also taught us quite alot about the selection of flats, and where to stay. Also gave us a sneak preview of an agent's life. Not easy at all...

Had fun with Twinkle (Aunty Jess's dog), Nica & Phela (Aunty Dori's dog) haha. Look at how Natasha progressed... she is not so afraid of the dogs anymore.. unlike Jeremy.. oh mine... he let go off Nica.. luckily my darling got hold of her... else dunno where she run to already... prob wham into Aunty Doris... or Ah ma...

Well everything is coming together now.
Tmr will be my first day at work of my new assignment, hopefully good enough to last me till next year. Then planning to do the HLE right after my 3 months period, just nice also the end of exams... then we can proceed with the selection of the flats.. and look forward to next year together.. and before that .. X'mas and graduation celebration. Yippie! I am so glad that things are slowly falling in place now.

Also this coming Sat will be the start of my last school semaster... i am so looking forward to it and it to be over!!!! Will update more when i am more free... sorry for the delay all.


To Bananna: Hope you get well soon ....
To Max: Hope you will find a job with better prospects...
To Aunty Chris: Hope that the new department is better for ya ^^ update me ya?
To my friends overseas: Hope you all are well and can adapt to life out there... and don't forget us at Singapore =)

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M.I.A

Hi All... how time flies? realized that i had stopped bloggin for almost 2 months? wow.. can't believe it. Well life had been very happening la.. i actually accepted an assignment and worked on it for like only 2weeks.. i can't believe it. But its really very boring.. right now still on a job hunt. So if you have anything in mind.. lemme know.

Another year of my life had gone... a year older by now lolx... dunno is happie or not? Thanks dearie for the little celebration and NYNY for the candy floss cake haha... we finished the meal!!!

Havnt got to meet up my poly friend before he went Aussie to study... sad case budden nvm lar.
Juz came back from a short holiday at Genting/Camerons... was a good trip. Tiring but quite enjoyed it ! Had been feeling very lethargic recently .. wonder what's wrong with me... =/

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Weeee.... I'm back again....

Wow.... some good news... feeling better now as my job hunt was rewarded. But still i find that the employers nowadays really sux!!!! Haiiz.... want to go do some shopping soon, get some new clothes Weee....went to 3 interviews: Results as follows:

Company A:
POST: Recruitment Consultant
Salary: FIX + COM + Transport allowance (FIX SUM)
First interview impression:
-AGM commented that she enjoyed talking to me... but she has 8-9 more candidates to see.. will get back to me soon... she asked me to give her my comments.
(so i more or less know that she wanted me liaos haha)

Company B:
POST: Telesales Officer
Salary: FIX + COM based on salary+ Incentive (Unknown)
First interview impression:
-50% chance.. coz it was a super short interview, and i forgot to print my resume for them (they didnt ask for it in the first place) and the recruitment consultant didnt gave me any good impression.

Company C:
Post: Telemarketing Assistant <-> Accounts executive
Salary: FIX + Com
First interview impression:
HR assistant said i am definitely the person which they are looking for...
Accounts manager said she is willing to give a chance......wanted me to go for higher position

[End up all is bullshit, told me to call her on her OFF day, and she's on AL for 1 week]

Been keeping track of the latest BTO coz plan to get my own flat soon. But of course,
$$ is always a problem. Haiiz...becos of this every time argue..sobs.... what to do?
Have to be realistic wat? Where can we find so much money when u want to pay for your family... and save for OUR family?

Haiis.... hope to be able to catch up with Christina and co soon but i doubt lor.. with all this busy schedule and busy life and stuff and few mths time sch opening again... haha... but life busy is good, it means it is fruitful.

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BuRpz...

This whole week is the best week.... 1 whole wk spend wif my dar. Then we hav been getting food restaurants membership card... *burps* was just telling dar, tat next time June will be the "hot" eating month... and we'll be like busy eating and spending vochures in June haha. Anyway glad that J meimei is getting better day by day, really happy for her...
now is hope that she can be discharged soon. Job hunting still no results... sob sob..
continue the search, continue the hunt.

Watched VCD with dar today... The decedents... quite an awful show lar lolz. Ending quite sad lor, almost all 6 of the main cast all gone in the cave haiis. But had quite some good food today. Hope dar is full and he should be home soon? hehe.

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~aNother Day~

Yesterday meet up with dar around 3++pm, then went to visit J meimei. Saw her "throw tantrums" and crying away. Felt upset and tried to control my tears. Tried to talk to her,
to try and forget the pain and endure it. Then saw that each time dar talks to her, she listens,
but she keeps on saying pain and she cannot take it. Realize that the way she lies tilt too much to one side, that why her leg went numb.

The doctor also was too fierce, i mean how can you speak to a kid in such a fierce manner. After all, she is still your patient. But life is like that, you cant be commanding people around. Even more so when you are ill, don't think that others are obligated to serve you. They are there to give you support and help you, but if you don't help yourself then no one will be able to. No one can feel your pain that is in you, we can only be there for you.

Having another day of hard time trying to sleep, end up went to watch abit of tv till quite late then when to tuck in. Can't help thinking when she will brace herself up, as there are so much things happening and we really can't afford to have her acting like this....

PS brace up soon, its for the better of yourself to get well. Do it for yourself, if not for your brother or mother. You have everyone's support. Be strong and get well. We want to see you back on your feet soon and get out of that place... we'll be happy to stand by you always.

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~Daily Entry~

...Daily Entry...
Goals Recapped:
1. Driving Licensed Obtained.
2. Degree ( almost there)
3. Full- time Job (No where in sight)

Its 08.05am now, as i blog. Would say a very early morning for one whom is not working.
Looking forward to a day out as i haven't been really out for sometime already.
NP gangs going back to meet Miss KPT. Was speaking to dar about this legendary lady yesterday night before i had trouble falling asleep.
Its weird to say this, but i think i have forgotten how to "fall asleep"
cause, i just have difficulties falling asleep these days.
And what happens in the morning is that i just get very lethargic and can't concentrate
on what i wanna do.

Anyone with any sleeping tips?
Tried drinking milk, hot milo , warm water and so on before going to bed but doesn't really works. Also tried to listen to my mp3s and sleep, but mostly waking up with a "tired ear".

Well i am still keen on a short holiday, although a long one will even be nicer. But now is the travel peak season... oh when will NATAS fair be?

Lastly, glad that J Sis is ok, although haven't visit her yet.
Hope that she can be discharged soon and is feeling ok.
Just hope that she do not keep re-thinking the process, i know she'll be okay
as she have us around and she's a positive gal.

Saw this interesting crafted baby in an email
and thought i do a little artwork to the photo.
Find the baby so cute, like a real baby. Take a look, and leave your comments =)

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